精神分裂症

看了两遍。越看越喜欢。说不上的喜欢。

喜欢里面的每句对白。




I haven't always been here.
I mean, before...I was normal.
Before it happened, I would have been there, on the couch,
not over here, in mid-air, 91 cm from the couch...
precisely 91 cm from where I should be.

(OK. Go on:)

It's all because of that thing!
A 150-ton meteorite, for god's sake...
It's bound to leave a mark.


So, there was no actual damage after all, is that right?

（No damage? What do you mean?）

Well, just the aerial on the building opposite mine.
And me.
And me.


91 centimetres...
I am exactly 91 centimetres from myself...
Now, it's just a question of organisation.
Got to be organised, that's all.

At home, I've just about got things under control. It's OK.
It's not so bad.
But of course, you can't foresee everything.
If this goes on, I can say goodbye to my job.
I can't go on. Not like this.


(Alright, next time we'll come back to the asteroid.)

Meteorite, not asteroid! It's totally different!
It's not that hard to grasp, an as... an as... an asteroid is when..
An asteroid is when the... whatever...
It's a whole different thing!
It was a meteorite that crashed into me, nothing else!
And all I want is... to get back to where I was.
And quite clearly, you can't help me.


【我以为医生可以帮他。】




Yes Mother...

No, no, I can't hear you very well either.

Listen, I've been thinking...
Perhaps it's not such a good idea you coming to visit me now...

No, I didn't say I wouldn't like to see you!

It's just that...

I've really got a lot on my plate...
I'm absolutely swamped...


【我以为妈妈会明白。】




Where do you think you're going?
I'm not going to let you slip away.


【所以结果只能是恶化。】




（How are you feeling today?）

What brings you here, Mr. Debrus?

（Ah, I see, yes, indeed...）

So, there was no actual damage after all, is that right?

（How many centimetres did you say?
   Alright, next time... we'll come back to the asteroid...）


【医生试图了解。可他明明什么都不懂。】




（Hello Henry?

   Henry!

   I don't know what's got into you, but I'm starting to worry.
   Your Uncle John said he passed you in the street and you didn't even say hello!
   He got you your job, you konw...

   Henry...)


【妈妈试图关心。可她根本不懂什么是关心。】




They say it strikes one person in a hundred.
One person, just like that... at random.
That's all they told me.

They never tell you how crazy you are.
Just that you've lost it, that you're beside yourself...out of your mind.

So a little bit more, a little bit less...
what's the point of knowing...
knowing how many centimetres you've slipped...

The only thing I'm sure about now...
is that from where I'm standing, it's not a bother anymore.
Not anymore...

I'm here!

I'm here!

Over here!

No, not there...

Over here!

Hey!

Oy!

I'm here!


【就是这种感觉。而这些也只有自己知道。】

精神分裂症的一个特征：妄想
　　1、关系妄想：患者坚信周围环境中的一些与他不相关的现象均与他有关。如旁人之间的谈话认为是在议论他，别人吐痰是在针对他。
    2、被害妄想：毫无根据地坚信别人在迫害他及其家人。迫害的方式多种多样，被跟踪、被诽谤、被隔离、被下毒等。
    3、影响妄想：自觉有一种被控制感。患者坚信自己的心理活动与行为受到外界特殊东西的干扰与控制。可以是无线电、光波、某种射线等等。患者体验有强烈的被动性和不自主性，此为精神分裂症的特征性症状。
 　　4、嫉妒妄想：患者坚信自己的配偶对自己不忠，与其他异性有不正当的关系。跟踪、监视配偶，拆阅别人写给配偶的信件，检查配偶的衣物等。
 　　5、夸大妄想：患者坚信自己有非凡的才能、至高无上的权利、大量的财富等等。
 　　6、钟情妄想：患者坚信自己受到某一异性或许多异性的爱恋。当遭到对方拒绝时认为这是在考验他，仍反复纠缠不休。
 　　7、罪恶妄想：坚信自己犯有严重的错误。轻者认为自己做错了事说错了话，对不起别人，应该受到惩罚，应该判刑，甚至罪大恶极，死有余辜，因而患者采用各种方式来赎罪。
 　　8、疑病妄想：患者坚信自己患了某种严重的躯体疾病，因而到处求医。患者反复找医生看病，重复做各种检查也不能消除疑心。 　　 9、被洞悉感：称内心被洞悉或思维被揭露。患者坚信自己的思想未经过言语或其他方式表达出来，就被别人知道了，甚至尽人皆知，闹得满城风雨。

精神分裂症的又一个主要症状：幻觉。
　　1、幻听：是指没有听觉刺激也可出现听觉现象的体验。持续的言语性幻听常常是精神分裂症的表现。
    2、幻视：指没有视觉刺激时出现视觉相象的体验。幻觉多种多样，如简单的光、单色的颜色、单个物体、复杂的情景性场面，可能鲜明生动。
 　　3、幻嗅：能闻到一些难闻的、令人不愉快的气味。
 　　4、幻味：品尝到食物内有某种异常的特殊刺激性味道，因而拒食。
 　　5、幻触：感到皮肤有某种异常的感觉，如虫爬感、蚁走感、针刺感、液体流动感。
 　　6、内脏幻觉：患者体验到躯体内部某一部位或某一脏器有异常知觉体验，如感到肺扇动、肝破裂、肠扭转，能准确定位，常与疑病妄想、被害妄想同时出现。